The Painful TruthBitter lies and lost love covers the truth from wary eyes.We hide our love between fragments of what was, and pray that tomorrow will be better.Our mistakes are many, as our blind eyes search through cold glass.Sharp words cut the soul till all that remains of dreams and ideas of fantasy are crushed by reality.We struggle to hold on to the remains of all we believed in, as the sun sets on those beautiful lies.And as the life drains from us, we wonder. Was it worth it? The heartache, the suffering that leaves scars?We ponder and as time slips through our slanted fingers, we stare at the moon, chasing lost hope.And we wait for the sun to rise, our hearts believing and mind deceiving.As we wake from those warm dreams and fall to the ground, bitter and numb.All hope lost in the fragments of time.
Not YouSo I'm not perfect.I can't always be there.I can't hide anymore from what I feel.I don't want to hurt.I don't want to hear.I don't want to know that you're not real.But listen.It's not all pretend.Sometimes I must deceiveSO I can reach the end.And maybe I'm not the oneBut what I feel is true.And I was hoping you'd feel it to.But it's not you.We were perfect.You were always by my side.You always knew just what to say.But we fell downThis path we are now living.The ground has gone so far away.But listen.It's not all pretend.Sometimes I must deceiveSO I can reach the end.And maybe I'm not the oneBut what I feel is true.And I was hoping you'd feel it to.But it's not you.You ran away form everything I ever thought I knew.You disappeared,and I don't know what to do.You were everything and everywhere I once loved.But now it's all up above.If you don't listen.It will all be pretend.I tried to deceive youbut this is the end.I know now I'm not the oneyou don
RememberThe face can hide a story.The heart can sting the soul.We hide emotions behind expressionsBefore we lose control.The mind is always deceivingand we can never win.We wait for hearts to shatterand a new life to begin.Everyone has bad days my dearSo listen to me my friend.Eery good day has a beginningand every bad one has an end.
Death of a Dear Friend (tribute to Maizie)Her time has finally comeNo matter how much I pleaFor the Angels up in HeavenTo let my baby be.Now my amazing Maizie,Has become young and newHer paws touch the clouds aboveAnd the sky of heavenly blue.She has slowly rise up to the light,And left me in the dark.I no longer see her furOr hear her joyful bark.She is now but ashesThe spirit all but there.I watched her body go up in flamesAnd all I could do was stare.Goodbye my beautiful Maizie,The dog I forever shall love.I shall miss you Maizie,As you live in the sky above.You may wonder what this poem is about. It is about my beautiful dog, Maizie. or she was...
Maizie died saturday morning. I had to know that she was no longer alive. She was cremated, also known as burning her up, and maybe getting the ashes. She was my best friend, and I loved her. She had a brain tumor for two years, and was ver sick. Her heart gave out. But she was a fighter. When we found out that she was sick, we thought she would only liv
Letter to CrushDear crush,I like you. I now know you don't like me they way I like you. You don't notice me in the halls, you don't smile when I smile at you, you don"t try to catch my attention, and I wish you did. I wish we could have a romance like those romantic chick flicks. You would fall in love with me, have a heart felt confession and tell me you've loved me all along, we would kiss in the rain, and I would feel loved, and love someone in return, fully, truly, and unconditionally. But sadly, Nick Cassavetes, John Hughes, and Richard Curtis did not direct my life. My life is a screwed up one, where the glass slipper never fits, midnight strikes at 3:30, the boy walks away form the heart felt confession of the young naive girl, and she never gets the happily ever after. But that is ok. Maybe one day I can find someone who likes me, like I think I like you. Maybe.
HelloHello old friend.You've gone away.You've been missing so longIt hurts.She is not you at all.She is a monsterOf anger, loss, sadnessAnd pity,Which locked you deep in her chest.What is it likeIn that dark cold cell of frustration?Can you see through her eyesHear through her ears,Because I know you cannot speak.Is it really you under her mask?Because if you felt so aloneYou would have found me.You wouldn't have left.Would you?Hello old friend.I miss you.I miss my best friend, my sisterMy secret keeper.I can't tell this monster,With her heart of steel and chains of stoneAbout the smiles and glances.I can't tell the beast of darkness and solitudeOf how I think it means more than what I see.I want to tell you,But you are in a caged trapWith no key to the complex lock.I need you.Goodbye old friend,I shall see you soon.I will draw you from her clutched cold claws.I will rescue you from her locked doors and shadows.I will save you from yourself.Hello.
Alright, an original song by CaitieMy minds confusedI have to chooseBetween love and a lie.My brain has retiredMy heart has expiredI don't know how to try.So kiss me nowMake the pain disappear.My heart beats loudMy heads not clear.Can't find the truthIn the lie tonightSo kiss me nowMake the world alright, alright?La la la la laLa la la laLa la la la laLa la laLa la la laUh hu alrightCan you seeThe broken in me?Can you sense my fear?Cause your loveIs hell from aboveAnd my soul is dying here.So kiss me nowMake the pain disappear.My heart beats loudMy heads not clear.Can't find the truthIn the lie tonight,So kiss me nowMake the world alright, alright?I'm alone in the universeWith only myself and a pen.Hold my hand, and kiss me thenI can fall back to Earth with you tonight.So kiss me nowmake the pain disappear.Cause when you hold me in your armsThe world is crystal clear.You are the truthDon't hide from the lieSo kiss me nowAnd the worlds alright.My minds confusedI have to choo
No Longer Unsure Chpt.1 (Yaoi Fanfic)This is an Edward+Jacob Yaoi Fanfic. If you don't approve, I don't care, just hit the back button because you don't deserve to read the glory of the two most beautiful fictional characters ever. “Edward?” Her soft breath crept along my chest, seeping into the pours that I didn’t have. “Yes love?” “Why do I have to stay away from Jacob?” Bella asked for the fourth time this week. I grimaced internally. I couldn’t let her see Jacob. She could find out... Not sure how, but if she saw the way I reacted to him, she might become suspisious. And so could he... I sighed, dreaming that someday I would have the confidence to tell him. I could only hope he wouldn't hate me. But Bella's constant pleading was beginning to get almost annoying, something I wouldn’t have thought was possible a few weeks
No Longer Unsure Chpt. 5 (a Yaoi fanfic)EdwardI sped out of the house as fast as I could, sprinting though the forest once again. I had no aim, not bothering to execute a sense of direction, I just ran. I knew somewhere in the back of my mind that I was surely out of Forks by now but it stopped mattering. I had failed every single person I loved and I had done it so easily, so simply. I wished with a fierce desperateness that I could curl up on the forest floor where no one could see me and cry away some of the pain all stuck in my throat but I was a despicable vampire and I could not cry away the pain, nor sleep it off. Despite what Bella had said that first time she had visited the house I could most definitely not do everything. Hell, all I was good for was killing. That’s what I was made for, meant to be.I looked down at my hands as I ran, gaps in the trees let sunlight in, falling over my cold, hard skin. “Like diamonds,” Bella’s words came back to me. I stared at them, hating
No Longer Unsure Chpt. 6 (a Yaoi fanfic)Jacob“Quil?”“Over here!”I broke out of the trees and found myself at the very edge of a huge, steep cliff. I stumbled and almost lost my footing but Quil’s teeth dug into the back of my t-shirt, stopping me from going over the edge. “You idiot,” his voice resounded in my head. “What did you bring me here for?” “I needed to show you this. Now look over the edge of the cliff, but carefully now, don’t fall!”I did as he said, slowly craning my neck over the edge, trying to see past the craggy rocks and to the sand below. Then something moved into the very top of my vision. I took a tiny step forward and almost lost my footing again. But not because I was having trouble balancing, but because of what I saw. I barely registered Quil grab onto my shirt again because there, lying on the sand was Edward Cullen. His limbs were all bent at weird an
No Longer Unsure Chpt.7 (A Yaoi Fanfic)EdwardAs soon as the land started becoming more familiar, I knew I was back in Forks. I didn't pause but continued running till I reached the highway. Then I stopped and shoved my hands in my pockets, settling back for a lazy stroll. I knew Bella wasn't going to be out of school for hours yet so I would have to be patient and kill some time. I sighed. The monster inside of me
well outside now I guess, reared, eager for kill. It wanted me to rip the wall of the school off kill anything that moved. But I didn't. I wanted to play with Bella, however boring that may be, before I killed her. I wanted her to smile until her smile was forced to give way to screaming. I wanted her to feel my betrayal.I wasn't doing this because of anything she'd done. She was completely innocent in fact. But she was standing between me and my freedom. If I wanted to be free of this ridiculous life in Forks then I was going to have to get rid of her. I was going to get rid of all the memories in this pl